Sorry For Not Updating..have been very busy and bad mood LOL . But Now i'm back for tiffyboes ! Well As u know from my status in twitter or facebook , that so many bad things happen to me this recently weeks..Yeah i really really wish that i could fall in love again and have a new and NORMAL relationship again.
I Really really want find a perfect guy for me who wont hurt me and always want to listen to me. And Twiits , I Really jealous to people that have a great relationship and have a great life. They have a girl or boy that always care for them in sad or in happy time. I know that that kind of relationship wont stay long but i realy need it right now. I Cant stand alone , i need someone ! i NEED it !. Every person in this world needs love needs care and needs someone who really love them. I'm sure of it.
I really wish that once day there will a prince come to me and said i love you. Love Is the most easy thing to speak but its the hardest thing to do. It need hard work. People think that i'm always happy in my life , always laughing , but the truth is I NEVER smile in my souls. I Always crying and no one listen to it. Because i just dont want people to listen when i'm crying but i want people to understand and help me. People think that i have a great love story like cinderella but the truth is not ! i have the most bad love story. I Want to know what love is , i want to know how when someone love you and hugh you. i want to know hows kiss someone that u really love. And i want to know how u spare time with your love.
I Want to know how feel to love a guy again. And the last is i want to know what love is. I'm fed up with a boy that always hurt me and he doesnt feel that he always hurt me. A boy that never know that i love him so much and i will do everything for him. I hate a guy that never want say the truth to me if he has problems. I Hate that kind of guy . REALLY hate it. I Hate when someone told me that he loves me and he give a hope to have him , but the truth is he never love me and he wants someone else.
I Hate when people got everything they wants and i'm not. I Dont have anything. Its make me sick of my self. I Hate my life when pain of love come to me and make me crying. I Hate my tears when its comes out.
Everytime i sad, i always try to make me happy because no one that really really know my feelings and my heart and what i want right now. I hate when people always blame me for my fault and dont want to listen to me first why i do this. They just make up their mind. They dont know how much i lasted with suffering and pain. They just dont me so dont judge me. They dont know why i make all of this. They just know that i'm wrong , they just know that i like that and this. They DONT KNOW ANYTHING ! They dont know. They dont know how long i've waited for them , the dont know how far i walk to get them , they dont know how many sacrifices that i did for them. They just want everything that good inside of me. They dont want anything bad from me. They just want good things from me !
When people think that i'm very crazy and freak , they dont know that theirselfs that make me freak ! they dont know that theirselfs that make me crazy and sad ! they dont know anything..
Maybe one day , they must know how pain that i feels right now , so they know who i am. I never hope someone loves me so much until he dead. I Never expect a boy to care me so much. I Just a boy that wants me in a normal ways and love me in inside and outside.
Well , That tiffyboo's wishes lol. Its just form the bottom of my heart. Thanks for reading it
With Love ,
Tiffany HalimXx
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